Let’s play a game today! Kind of like “he loves me…he loves me not…he loves me” but we will call this “good news…bad news…good news.” Easy enough to follow along.
Good news: today is Monday, trust me there’s enough bad news coming where this sounds like it is over qualified for good news.
Bad news: I had an ultrasound this morning. This my dearest readers is where I spend most of my time these days, on my back, feet up:
Good news: I have a FDMF (fertility drug migraine friends,) buddy! Basically, we are only 1 CD (cycle day) apart, we both get bad headaches/migraines with our meds, and we get “news” that is eerily similar. Even in this shittastic world of infertility, it’s nice to have a buddy!
Bad news: I have ONE follicle.
Good news: There were NO MORE baby mugs shots on the wall. The picture has been rescued in sized, color edited, and stickers placed over the two baby mugs. I know it sounds harsh, but I despise having to walk past this everytime I go into an exam room.
Bad news: The one follicle is barely measuring at 11.
Bad news: The other follicles are “too small for any chance of significant growth” he informed me.
Bad news: “The follicle should be bigger then it is currently measuring. Strange.” said my doctor.
Bad news: I’ll be going back for another ultrasound Thursday or Friday.
Bad news: The day before the ultrasound I will have bloodwork done, based on those results, I might not even have to have the ultrasound!
Bad news: My doctor kindly shared his opinion: he thinks this round has failed as well. Interestingly enough, the first round when I actually had the IUI one follicle was at 11, and then grew pretty quickly. Since then though, we’ve had nothing but shrinking follicles.
Did you notice I ran out of good news? Me too. If you’re ever looking for that, reading this blog won’t help you! I mean the track record isn’t exactly favorable. Today from 7am on was long. Aggravating. Annoying. Exasperating. This couldn’t be more accurate as to how I felt around 12:30pm today:
Just sit and wait…and wait…and wait.
Maybe I should hose myself down with some Miracle Grow as my follicles barely grow 1mm/day, and ideally it (that one lonely follicle,) needs to be at least at 16mm.